A Love Letter For My Brother
I am sitting here staring at a blank screen
Eating a slice of chocolate cake in your honor
Even though I know you prefered tapioca pudding
You were my first best friend
I took you on all sorts of amazing adventures
Before you were old enough to say no
Like the time I took you on a little walk through the tundra
And scared the crap out of mom
You were He-Man and I was Skeletor, until you threw my Skeletor onto the roof, of course
And then when we got older, you taught me the fine art of sneaking out of the house at night
The one time I went with you, some other kids were out too
They were throwing toilet paper and eggs
And we had to hide in a ditch from the cops that were looking for them
I wish you had never moved away to California
Dad didn’t deserve you
You became a man at such a young age
You took such good care of yourself
You were my first best friend
When you moved away it broke my heart even though I understood why you did it
For you it was out of the frying pan and into the fire
But you never burned
You made that fire your strength
You eventually took that fire and fueled yourself
But the brightest flames tend to burn out the fastest
And just like that beautiful, hypnotizing flame
You were gone much too soon
So I sit here on the day of your birth
And I eat a slice of cake in your honor
And I reminisce on all the good times we had
And feel honored that I got to spend even that amount of time with you
Because you changed me for the better
Simply through your existence
I’ll keep looking for you
I’ll keep honoring you by being a good person and taking care of my family
That’s all you ever wanted to do, so I’ll do it too
I’ll go see the sights you wanted to see
Taste the exotic flavors you wanted to taste
Smell a breeze coming off an Antarctic glacier for you
See the sun rise and set on every continent just for you
I know you’ll be there in spirit next to me
And when no one is looking, I’ll simply fall apart once again
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